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Thursday, March 31, 2011

Here we go....

Baby days are gone. Today we went to have Paislee's 1 year pictures taken and as soon as we put her down on the backdrop she FREAKED. And she wouldn't stop. She clung to me and Jason, buried her face in our legs and wouldn't cooperate for NOTHING.

Is this what 'toddler' means? God help me.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Paislee's First Birthday

Paislee's birthday party was a huge success! It couldn't have gone any better, in my opinion. Everything turned out beautiful!

Here are a few pictures from our special day! When I say 'our' I really mean it. Having your child's birthday is like having a party for yourself, it's so much fun! Enjoy :)







We are all POOPED! I will add more later :)

XOXO,
Ashley--yep, being lazy and not even adding the signature!

Friday, March 25, 2011

1 Year

**This was supposed to post yesterday on 'Automatic Post' but didn't. Stupid blogger!**

Dear Paislee,

I can't believe you are one whole year old today! It seems like just yesterday I was scribbling down baby names, wondering if I would ever be a mom. Then, sooner than later, I found out that I would be a mom, and to a precious little girl! I can't imagine life without you, and I am so SO glad that you were a girl, because you are MY little girl, and what a sweet and smart and beautiful little girl you are! You bring so much light and happiness to my world. You make me laugh every day, and some days you make me want to cry! You are a handful, and you have been since the day you were born. You are strong willed and stubborn, like me! I love that you are strong willed and stubborn though, because I don't ever want anyone to take advantage of you and I want you to go after anything that you want!

You weigh ~22 lbs and are around 30 inches tall. We will find out definite weight and measurements April 4th at your 1 year appointment! You are wearing mostly 18m clothes, and size 4 diapers. Your shoe size is a size 4.

Your sleep schedule is still pretty dependable--you go to sleep between 8-10 p.m., and are usually up by 7:30, but sometimes sleep until 8:30 or 9. Those are my favorite mornings ;). Lately when you wake up, I turn the t.v to Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and throw a few toys your way and you lay in the bed and watch t.v and play, and I snooze a little longer watch you :) Lately you have been waking up crying in the middle of the night some nights, I am wondering if you are having nightmares? Nothing will calm you down, and eventually you just go back to sleep.

You still aren't eating worth a crap and it drives me crazy! I think you know it too! I have tried EVERYTHING. You nibble on some things, some things you won't even touch. I have worried myself so much over it, but am starting to realize that you are fine, you are growing and you will eat when you are ready! Until then...I will buy and cook food for you to waste!

You are ALL over the place. Your crawling days are gone, in fact, I haven't seen you crawl any lately and it makes me sad :( You aren't really running much yet, I would say it's more speed walking :) You climb on EVERYTHING and it drives me crazy! If you see something you want and it is out of your reach, you will pull anything you can find to stand on so you can get it.

You are still talking up a storm. I can't even remember all of the words you are saying now, you pretty much repeat anything I say more than once to you. You point to things you know you aren't supposed to be in and say "No no". If I tell you to go get me something you do it, as long as you know what it is I am asking for. You like to go outside to check the mail, and when I say "Let's go check the mail" you go stand at the door and wait for me. The best thing I have heard you do lately is say "Oh toodles!" You watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse a lot, and now when they are about to say "Oh Toodles!" you know it and you say it before they do on the show. HOW you know they are about to say it, I have no clue? But it is so funny, I LOVE it. You also ask to watch Mickey by saying "Toodles!".

We are home in NC right now for your Birthday party which is tomorrow. I can't WAIT to see you dig into your cake. You have a major sweet tooth (from your daddy's side of the family ;) ), and you are going to go CRAZY over that cake!

I love you little girl, SO much! You have made my life complete and I couldn't have asked for a better child and BFF (besides your daddy) :). I hope we have made you as happy this year as you have made us. We love love love you Princess Paislee!

XOXO,

Monday, March 21, 2011

Personal Issues

Hi everyone :)

Just wanted to do a quick post on some things going on in my life right now and ask for some prayers. A few weeks ago I went to the doctor for a routine physical, and had high blood pressure, so my doctor ordered blood work. It came back that I had hyperthyroidism, so she referred me to an endocrinologist. I went to the endocrinologist today and had more blood work done, and talked about my options.

She basically told me that I could have 1) hyperthyroidism,  2) something called Grave's disease--which is too much to explain, and honestly I really don't understand it and won't really bother with researching 'too' much until I find out whether or not I have it, or 3) I could have just had thyroiditis, which caused the blood work to read 'hyperthyroidism' and everything be okay now. I am praying praying praying that it is the last of the three I just mentioned, and there won't be any treatment needed. The treatment is pretty easy but not for the time being because for treatment #1, I can't take while breastfeeding, and who knows how long it will take to wean little diva? treatment #2 is radioactive iodine treatment which requires me to quit breastfeeding and to also be AWAY from my diva for a whole week because of the radiation and not wanting to expose her to it, and treatment #3 is surgery.

So please just pray that it is nothing, and if anything it was just thyroiditis and it's okay and gone now. I know hyperthyroidism isn't a serious condition and if treated shouldn't cause any problems, I just don't really want to deal with the options that I have right now (I will if I have to), but I don't want to have to be away from her for that long, but if my health depends on it I will :) Thanks for reading! We are off to NC in 2 DAYS!!!! Will update when I get my results--could take 2 days to a week :)

XOXO,
Ashley

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Happy 1st St. Patty's Day to my sweet Paislee! And happy "one week from now we will be in NC Woot Woot!" day too! ;)

Friday, March 11, 2011

A Princess Party!

Well, the invites have been sent out, and I think everyone has received theirs, so it's safe to post it here! I had it made here, by the same lady that made her birth announcement, and I love it! I wish all of my far away friends could come, but I will make sure to take TONS of pictures so you feel like you were there :) I am having a burst of birthday party energy now at the last minute, and am making lots of decorations--and loving them! Can't wait for you guys to see all of it put together!



XOXO,

Thursday, March 10, 2011

No make up?!?!

I NEVER go anywhere without make up. Not to the grocery store, the gas station, rarely even the drive through unless I HAVE to. I will take it off here though, since everyone else is doing it ;)

1. I have a love hate relationship with the military life. I LOVE the fact that Jason 'earns' 30 days off a year, even if he doesn't use them all and they get antsy if you even try (am I allowed to say that?). I HATE that he is gone all the time. I hate that I have spent 3 weeks with him this year so far. I hate that he has to leave me and Paislee all the time, even if its for 6 hours on work days during the weeks he is home. I know I 'signed up' for this lifestyle, but I had to. If I had a choice we would get all of the benefits of being in the military, but we would be able to live at HOME,  he would be able to be home EVERY SINGLE night, and we would never have to move. Can't I just have my cake and eat it too??

2. I do enjoy getting to see different places, but after I see them I want to go back home and be close to my family. I also enjoy meeting new people. That is the good thing about the military life. BUT meeting people isn't coming easy for me. I used to be SO outgoing and crazy and never had trouble talking to strangers. The older I get the harder it is though. I feel like I am still immature, especially when it comes to other moms, and I can't be myself around new people. If I could just act like my stupid, immature self--everything would be easier. So for now, I will sit in my house alone with my sweet baby girl and she will be my best friend, because she doesn't care how silly I act :) Or how immature I am :)

3. Paislee still wakes up to eat at night (don't feel alone, Paige. I will be thinking of you when I am also up for that 2 am feeding ;)). In fact, she wants to eat ALL NIGHT. Just lately, she still sleeps with me so it isn't too big of a deal but she wants to nurse ALL NIGHT LONG. Maybe it's a growth spurt.

4. I feel like my child is one of a kind. Doesn't every one feel that way about their kids though? I think Paislee was a diva the day she was born. And she hasn't given me a break ever since. She is needy, she wants me to hold her for her naps (and I do, a lot.), she doesn't want to eat food, she wants milk and only mine. She doesn't want a bottle. She will NOT fall asleep unless you are rocking her. She has never once laid down and fallen asleep on her own. And a lot of times I think to myself "WHAT am I going to do with this child? I will never have time for myself, EVER again" But then I think about how SMART she is, and how BEAUTIFUL she is, and how HEALTHY she is and how LUCKY I am.....and it can't be THAT bad. She isn't sick, she grows and she learns and that's all I care about. Even if I have to rock her to sleep for the rest of her life, and even if she wants to sleep with me and Jason forever--it could be so much worse. In fact, it isn't even bad, it's wonderful and I love her and life couldn't be better :)

4. But a night out with a few strong drinks would be great ;)

5. Even a weekend, but I can't even think about leaving her for that long yet :)

6. I LOVE to sing, but I can't sing good. I love to sing at the top of my lungs like I am performing at the Grammy's. But only when the neighbors aren't home :)

7. I can't wait to be pregnant again. I don't know when we will start trying for another one because there are a lot of things to think about before having another one but I feel like I will never have enough kids. I think I will always want another one. I'm sure I will change my mind after the next one though :)

8. I am a paranoid psycho too, Andrea. I am scared at night when Jason is gone and that is part of the reason Paislee still sleeps with us. I'm scared someone is going to break in and try to steal her or try to kill us. I do sleep with a gun beside the bed and yes it will be put somewhere safer when Paislee gets a little taller. So if you are a psycho killer and you're reading this--don't even think about coming in my house. Just kidding. Not really. I will aim for the head :) I think I have watched too many Lifetime movies. I was never like this before, I felt totally safe at home and my mom kept our doors unlocked all the time, even at night, even when we were not there. I think I'm a protective mama bear.

9. I LOVE to cook and I LOVE to eat! This is becoming a problem and I need to slow down :)

10. After reading this I think I need a therapist and you probably do too, ha!!!

XOXO,

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Funny things Paislee says....

Now that Paislee is talking quite a bit and doing and saying funny things, I thought it would be fun to write them down here so 

1. I can remember them.
2. You can laugh.

These may be things that aren't funny to you. These may be things that are a little embarrassing to me. That's why I am not putting them on Facebook, and here instead. If you read my blog, you love me for who I am--right? HeHe :) I just have one for today, and it's short and sweet but totally woke me up and cracked me up first thing this morning....

As you know, Paislee sleeps with us still. I just sleep in a sports bra because it's comfortable and let's face it: I don't like clothes all that much. Paislee always wakes up talking in the middle of the night and first thing in the morning. I like it because it tells me what she dreamt about ;) She has sat up dead asleep, eyes closed and said "Mow!" (Meow!). She woke up once saying and signing "Bath!". This morning, she rolled over, pointed to my boobies and said "What's that? Ball?!". 

Not that my boobs are perfectly shaped "balls". I gave up on that dream mid-pregnancy. EVERYTHING is a ball. Balls are balls, balloons are balls, cameras on the ceilings at Sam's Club are balls--they are, peas are balls--that's how I get her to eat them. You get the idea. Anything shaped like a ball IS a ball. We have a BALL (haha) in the produce section at the grocery store. Cantaloupes, oranges, lemons, limes, avocados, tomatoes, onions, apples, etc. Ball! Ball! Ball! Needless to say, Paislee loves grocery shopping! 

So with that said, what do I tell her my boobies are? Balls? Boobies? The dreaded word "Breasts"? That word is way too mature for me. Boobies are fine with me, I just worry she will say it in the middle of church or somewhere else important. She is still breast feeding (Yes, I realize she is almost one, yes we are trying to wean her, no it is not easy taking what she loves away from her. Please don't judge me.) So I'm not sure if I want her saying "Boobies" when she wants to eat.......have I mentioned lately that this parenting thing is SUPER hard? 

Any advice is welcome! Happy Hump Day! Paislee's birthday invitations are here and they are super cute, I am waiting to send them out and then I will post a picture here :)

XOXO,